living life yellow.
the ramblings of a 21 year old
How's it going, been a while hasn't it?
Let's face it, a lot has happened since I last wrote a blog post. I usually write when I'm not in a good place. This blog is my journal so generally you don't hear from me when things are going pretty well.
I was thinking 2020 was going to be my year. I started my degree in health science (double major in psych and health ed for those wondering ) and am working 3 jobs. In general, I was getting my life back on track and reaching my goals - but then 2020 got wild, for all of us.
New Zealand (the country I live in) went into lock down yesterday. No one is to leave their house unless it's to go to the supermarket or the doctors. It's going to be like this for the next 4 weeks at least.
Let's just say it's only day 2 and I'm going a bit insane. I'm very extroverted. I love being around people. My job involved talking to hundreds of people a day. Being locked in my house is insanely difficult for me.
Lock down has also hit pretty hard for me because I've spent two years of my life not being able to work or study due to being too sick. I lost my independence, felt incredibly alone and isolated. Now, I'm finally getting my life together and I've been forced back into this isolation and don't have a clue what to do with myself.
Don't get me wrong, I am totally for the lock down and recon aunty Cindy made the right calls (blessed to live in a country with such an empowering woman running the show.) But I can't wait for this to be over. I'm pretty sure my friends are already sick of me face timing them 5 times a day.
Over the next 4 weeks I thought it would be interesting to document what's been going on, not only to keep myself sane, but to show you guys that you're not alone. My favourite thing about my blog is that I reach so many beautiful people all over the world so it's never really a dull moment. It's funny to think that I actually started this blog post the day that I had to resign from my job because I was too sick to work. This blog was made purely to keep me sane, so let's hope that is still the case.
I'm isolating with my parents, 4 rats and the stray cat that showed up at our house a couple weeks ago. Let's just say tensions got a bit high today. I may have had a screaming match with Dad (sorry dad) and ended up throwing the bottle of milk in a very immature adult tantrum - safe to say I'm not coping too well with everything. Chilled out for a bit by reading a book that I picked up to read during iso - "the invisible load" by Dr Libby. It's actually the perfect book for me to be reading right now as it is the ultimate guide to understanding and combating stress and overwhelm. Overall, today's been not bad, but not great. It's only day 2 and all I want to do is go to work and see my friends.
Let's ride this crazy wave of 2020 together.